Three years ago I started working on this new company. I work for a multinational and I am its representative in my comm

Three years ago I started working on this new company. I work for a multinational and I am its representative in my community. The first welcome call I received was from my immediate boss to make himself known; The second, that of a companion of another community called Alejandra. I didn't receive more. Of this last one I can only say that it seemed to me like a voice happy and a kind gesture on his part, and from the start and for that reason alone It aroused my sympathies. Since then, day in and day out, Alex and I We communicate either by telephone or online. I can't explain why, I can't give a specific reason, but Alex has managed to make a deep impression on my heart from day one. She is witty, funny, nervous, grumbling, nice, empathetic and humane... very human; for this reason she takes a lot of bad things moments at work and I enjoy listening to her and advising her or encouraging her, as the case may be! The more I treated her, the more I wanted to meet her in person. I am a very determined guy from the start and very stubborn. Me I like to be direct and I give my opinion on what I think I should give my opinion, not on the rest. I am interested as I am not interested in the opinion that others have regarding my!. And yet this woman!! I can't help but support her everything you say or do; I think he is unaware of the power of attraction he exerts about me, and that makes her even more charming. In our conversations, I have learned to love her, to esteem her very muchand even depend a little on her "paparrutxadas" like she calls his bullshit. But I want to meet her now!!! And one occurred to me idea that seems good to me: -"Hey, I told him one day on the phone, what do you think if Shall we all get together one day to eat? So _I said as an excuse_ we will face each other. the people we talk to every day, don't you think?" She seemed delighted with the idea, what's more, because logistical reasons it was delayed and in the end he encouraged me to organize it in a way or another. I have to confess that I was like a kid with shoes new to the idea of having Alex around.and in fact, on the day of the meeting, He was nervous like a fifteen-year-old on his first date. For a long time now, Alex and I played cat and the mouse in our conversations and we both know that we can continue playing and We would be delighted, or maybe the cat catches the mouse or vice versa. He once told me a story about this very thing. _"You know, Santi, that cats don't hunt mice for desire to hunt or to kill the prey? Cats see a mouse and they see it so fast, they want to play with himwithout measuring their strength, they don't realize that "they hurt." It only occurred to me to answer: -"You see? Someone always screws up"_referring to special to the little game that we play and that we had agreed on, between laughs, that I was the mouse, because in the drawings of TOM and JERRY, he is the one who always win. I like the way my partner speaks. It is clear, direct (although he loves reading and making me read between the lines), and above all, I think how sincere He is an exceptional person, but when I tell him, he He insists on trying to make me believe otherwise. -"There is a difference, Santiago, and that is that I am not a cat and you are not a mouse. If we let ourselves get caught up, we are aware of what the game is." She is like that, I already said it before and she always goes one step ahead. in front of me She is lively and our conversations always have a funny point, they stung How can we not want to see him face to face and give him a face? end!. Well, I've seen her on camera sometimes, with her untamable hair, her black curls, her dark eyes and her permanent smile. ! But it's not the same! The day we met for lunch, along with others colleagues, she arrived last and I was already going up the walls. He came in apologizing with a wide smile...he kicked us out a quick glance at everyone and began with the greeting, which instead of being de rigueur He was very affectionate... He hugged and gave kisses to everyone, and left me for him. end. -"I couldn't wait to finally meet you"_he told me to the ear taking advantage of the hug. And I, like a fool, smiled pleased. I sat next to him at lunch and then we were walking a little to get to know the city, sometimes - at least - by his side She seemed like a pretty woman to me, maybe not so much because of her looks like from what I know of its interior! When the time has come for everyone to go to their destination, I would have given anything to have enjoyed his company alone for a little while. further. I remember that when he said goodbye, he gave me a hug prolonged and two kisses and he whispered to me again"see you". If she knew how much I wanted her wish to come true come true! The only thing I can say is that if I previously believed that Alex was a different woman, now he was certain. The next day I ran out of time to exchange opinions and not so much to know about others, but to know about her about me. I know. Pure vanity!, but I needed to know what It had made an impression on him, what did he think of me? Everything!! It's incredible, because despite my bravado, I I feel helpless before her. Without realizing it I was asking him when We organized another meal. I heard him laugh while he asked me: _ "Gee, Santi, were you hungry yesterday, or what?" I had to bite my tongue not to tell him that I was left wanting her, her company, her laughter and her looks, her witty comments on his trenchant observations.of all of it, because I didn't even know what was happening to me or why! I don't know if it was me who suggested that she organize it or It was she who offered, but the days went by, I continued treating her and it was aware of my desire to have her close again. The truth is that for one reason or another I was postponing it. and I gently pressured her to make up her mind, until finally she date and place. It already cost him! It was she who suggested that I meet an hour earlier at the terrace of a cafeteria and also said that the last one paid for the beers. Holy shit! Despite the time of our appointment, I I arrived there even half an hour early with the absurd hope that she would appear likewise. I was deciding what to wear, like a kid Nervous wanting to impress a girl! And when I saw her arrivewith her shorts, her blouse pinkher hair downI thought my heart was going to jump out. I really got nervous. I know, a sovereign idiot ,No?. Two kisses, a hug, a nervous laugh and a silly feeling in the body. How long has it been since I felt like this?! I've been married for 20 years and I love my wife, but everything is so routine, so monotonous that Alex represents a little piece of joy and happiness in my daily life. No, we do not live deceived. We both know what there is, what what we want, which does not go beyond a mere fooling around, but enough for us to our lives have a different touch. I don't even know what the hell I was talking about during that time. when we were alone, such was my nervousness, and frankly, time came back to pass very quickly and the others began to arrive. The restaurant was a success. An endearing place and Perfect, a delicious meal and an exceptional after-dinner meal. The day was also good and we were walking around the beach until we decided to have a coffee on one of its terraces. I can speak for myself, I had a great time and enjoyed myself as a company dwarf. The afternoon flew by and little by little the people left. retreating, until Alex and I were alone and I offered to accompany her to her car. It was a true exercise of containment, in seriously!, because on more than one occasion I want to grab her by the waist and steal a kiss. But I was afraid, I admit it. I was afraid to play a card with a beautiful friendship for a single kiss and once again, as farewell I settled for two kisses and a hug. "What an idiot!" I thought. This is how another meeting ended again. I let a few weeks pass, how can I explain the need What do I have about her at this point? Such is the case, that one morning when leaving work, I took the car and went to his office. I don't know where that madness came from, I can only say that I don't regret it unless it's not having done it before! I entered with a firm step, to appear normal, but My heart was beating fast and when I saw her with a look of astonishment, she pounced to give me an intense hug, I knew I was in the place I wanted and with the person I wanted. I try to keep my feet on the ground it's true, although sometimes it is difficult. We spent a few hours together and I was happy until I He accompanied the car. Each one had to pull in opposite directions. I was talking and talking about nonsense trying I mustered up the courage to kiss her.but I backed out again. Days later, with his usual frankness he asked me: -"The other day, Santi...why didn't you kiss me? "You were in trouble." _"Was my desire so obvious?" I asked, trying gain time- Appreciating his frankness, I decided to reciprocate in equal measure with a sincere answer: -"I was afraid of ruining something. Everything is too much nice enough to screw up for something stupid like a kiss." I didn't want to tell him that I'm afraid to start something that that lacks continuity. I also omitted to tell him that I am afraid of hurting him and end up damaged anyway. I didn't want to tell her that she is a precious stone that I don't want to polish, because as long as it doesn't have a defined shape it will have a thousand shapes in me. mind. I asked him if he preferred a kiss or a friend. She answered: "And why should I choose? Why not both?" When he confessed to me that from the first meeting he was waiting for a kiss, it touched my soul!! What a fool I am!! How I let myself be carried away by him fear? And yet I promised him something I promised I would kiss her the next time we met. let's seeand I'm dying of fear and I'm dying of desire and only when that moment I will know which of the two fears wins.