What is true love like?I don't know why I still think about

What is true love like? I don't know why I still think about him. He has hurt even without love it my feelings. I always thought badly of those women who were stupid. They still love a man who doesn't feel the same way about them. But... stupid My, the story is very different when you are the author. Why can't I love to another? What did he do to me? Sometimes I think I'm going to forget him but I look at him, I smile and all my good intentions go down the toilet. I always hear that no There is no evil that lasts a hundred years nor a body that resists it. I pray to God that this virus With your name pass once and for all, let me laugh remembering what I feel today. At times I feel like everything is going to happen, I feel like I'm finally freeing myself from his bewitchment... Have you heard this thing about one nail pulling out another? It's one more lie bigger than the Sun. I tried, but I couldn't even resist him putting his hands on my shoulders. Why so much loyalty? Is there something wrong inside me? head? Or does this also happen to other people?...Has it happened to you? Only I can imagine myself with him, all the others seem repulsive to me, could that be true? Why are there women from only one man? And if so, am I in love with him? forever? I honestly don't believe it but sometimes I feel sad because I wish he was indifferent to me, that I didn't care that he loved someone. further. I have never been selfish nor have I wished for another person's sadness but I believe that with him I have sinned so much in thought that a thousand prayers are not enough to vindicate myself How do you imagine the love of your lives will be? man you would like to be with every night? I always imagined that I would meet and we would both love each other forever.... Am I too candid or are you Have you also thought like that? This is why deep down I know that he is not love. Yeah If he were then he would feel the same about me. This is what real love should be like: clean, pure, transparent, mutual. You must feel immense trust in the other person, knowing that they feel the same way about you. That there are no masks, that there are no inhibitions.....on the contrary, everything must be natural, genuine, without duplicity, preconceived poses or plans. I want to think that this exists, that for each person there is another who complements him and with whom there is no need to explain himself nor to pretend because the other knows your being and there are no reasons to maintain something hidden. Incredibly or perhaps not so incredibly, love can be very detached, you can come to desire the happiness of the loved one even when be it at yours expense. To wish that he is well, that that other person gives him everything how much you can't give him, that the other person loves him enough, that he feel happy. To love everything about him, even those defects that you know he has. I never thought that love could cloud my judgment like that, to even put my moral values ​​in question, it has expanded my parameters, it has made me see things I didn't see. Somehow love makes you a better person, more human. You know what? Despite everything that has been said, I do not regret anything, of feeling what I feel for him, for loving him so much. The happiness that seeing him makes me compensates Everything else is an indescribable emotion, something I have never felt before. before. At some point I thought that he was a distant person and even a little cold as far as men were concerned. He showed me that no, that I am a lot woman and that I have many feelings and emotions to offer to whoever is my man even though he will never be one. Love has also made me feel exposed, naked.....In front of others I pretend that I don't feel it but I know that he knows it and that It's enough to make me feel that way. I have also felt ashamed as if It would be a sin to feel what I feel. Maybe when I meet my true love nothing will be like that, everything will be clear, easy, without stumbles. we will feel hopelessly attracted from the first meeting and nothing will be the same as before. I don't know if I live in a rosy world or everything I imagine is possible. It's not that I want a prince charming but someone for whom I be the most important thing. Is it too much to ask?